Monday, March 8, 2010

Now I'm covered up in snow. Please give me some kind of sign: Is this the right place? Or the right time?

the past couple of days i started to have nose bleeds. this stress is overwhelming. i'm trying to wrap my mind around what i need to do but it's really hard.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Friday, February 26, 2010

Did you forget how much you once loved me And if you want something back All the things that got cracked When i felt like you lied to me

i saw the royal tenenbaums for the first time the other night at mikey's house. for sure one of my top favourite movies. i bought 12 more movies. my dvd collection is out of control. i love it.

i'm still kind of at loss of what to do right now.
i forgot what i wanted to write about :]

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

a stranger's just someone that you've forgotten how will we know if we've met before

found out that circa survive is playing in orlando, i am really wanting to go see them!
autumn cleaned my apartment for me and i bought her a tanning membership to pay her back, BRONZE BUNZ!

i am so looking forward to ashleyrenees baby shower this saturday, i can't believe she's gonna have a baby still :] autumn and i are getting her present friday i think and riding together saturday. should be lotsa fun!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

I never expected you to love me The way i loved you To have you near Was all I wanted Just to have you near

I am completely frustrated with the fact that my insurance I’ve been waiting for will not cover my preexisting conditions. Fuck me right?
I have to cancel my appointment AGAIN with Dr. V and live with the fact that I will be forever doomed.
I feel like dropping my long awaited insurance.

I wonder if I can go through anything else other than my works insurance to cover my preexisting conditions? Who knows? I feel like giving up. It’s exhausting being the only one on my side.

I’m sick and tired of coming to work knowing that $2 coming out of my pay check every day is going to nothing at all for me because there is nothing here to eat except veggie burgers. Don’t get me wrong, I was more than grateful to have veggie burgers brought in for myself...but after five or six months or so of eating them every single day, I am quite sick of them. Everyone else here gets to eat a different meal on the Chefs Special because they all eat meat. I feel like I’m being punished and singled out because I have a medical condition that I honestly can not eat meat or else it makes it so much more difficult for me. Yeah so what there are salads here to eat…not for me! I eat A LOT and a puny little salad isn’t going to fill me up. I don’t want to sound picky or snobby or whiney, but COME ON. All I am asking is you know throw in some pasta without meat sauce for once or something. This place is sucking the life-force out of me.

No one understands.